Sunday, January 26, 2014

So Much Has Happened! Are There Enough Words?

   Well just like my tittle says a lot has happened since I have posted last! But where do I begin?! I guess I should start with Preference, yeah that seems like a good place to start! Preference is a girls ask dance, and I think I asked the best way possible! Over text, let me explain the circumstance and why I couldn't somehow come up with some big fancy way to ask. You see I was up in Salt Lake City as I am so often doing doctor visits, when my friend texted me in a panic and said that they had cancelled to asking date! I was planning on asking one of the most sought after guys in the school so I was panicking because I knew if I didn't ask that day my opportunity was gonna vanish! So I texted him! best way to with emjos and other fun stuff! It turned out great because over text you don't have to wait forever for a reply! And that is how I got my date to Preference!
   Now fast forward to January 18th. Day of the day date and dance! For our day date we went to on of the couple's houses and played games for a couple of hours it may sound boring but it was so much fun! we played " Never have I ever", catch phrase, and a type of telephone game the name escapes me. but it was a blast! Then we went and dropped off our dates got all fancied up for pictures and dinner. After that we went to the Dance of course! Such a great time with such an amazing guy! Thanks McKlane for saying yes! oh and being a good titanic role play partner :)

   Okay so now that Preference is over I can talk about my birthday! I'm finally an ADULT! Crazy!! but very fulfilling to because now I can do a lot more things like: buy lobster, rent a port-a-potty, buy spray paint, go to night clubs, sign legal contracts, move out of the house, become a flight attendee, and my favorite buy a monkey! I haven't started my 18 year old bucket list yet but I'm working on it, I'm trying to do as much as I can before I turn 19. It will happen! It's fun being 18 because of how much you can do but yet also there is a lot of responsibility.
  Lets see what else has happened? Oh this weekend I had Efy express! its a church thing for the youth that they do in the summer but during the middle of the year they hold a day where you basically have efy all in one day, you get to hear some amazing speakers and have a ton of fun! The speakers this time were John Bytheway and Brad Wilcox! If you haven't heard of them, look them up they are amazing! But the best part for me was the very beginning, so one of my really close friends we are like sisters thats how close we are, she was going to try and get off work to come down to be a counselor at this. But she couldn't well thats at least what she told me. so anyways she had one of her friends bring down something for me. I met up with her friend and she positioned me by the door facing away and gave me folded up napkin, random right? well on it, it said to look behind me, and she burst out of the door and I literally tackled her and gave her a hug! Literally one of the best moments of my life. 
So that was my weekend and past week! A lot happened but yet it was the greatest week.
   I'm learning to live with the pain it sucks though. I guess I'll just have to wait and see if this IV therapy worked. We won't know till May if it's worked. But even then I might have pain, but like I said I'm learning to live with it. There are times when it's frustrating but I just have to remember that it'll all be okay in the end. When that'll be I'm not sure and that's where I need to learn patience.
   Well it's late and I have a full day tomorrow so I better go. But guys thanks so much for reading my blog! You seriously have no idea how much it means to me! 

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Putting my own twist on something

    We'll just tonight actually I was reading something that really something that really hit home for me and hopefully she wont mind me putting my own twist on it. here is the link to her post you should definitely read it.  
     As many of you know i have been suffering non stop pain for the past almost 3 years now. It has been a rough ride for me. I have spent many night laying in my bed just wondering when all of this will be over or if it'll ever be over, any normal person would if they were in my shoes, but then again if anyone  were in my shoes i think they would fall at the first step. 
   Ive hit those low points where i just am tired and just cry and just beg God to tell me why it had to be me to go through all this. Why should I keep having to put one foot in front of the other when all I want to do is sit down and cry? Sometimes at night I have horrible nightmares of Ohio, I get phantom pain in my face and head from all the surgeries. I wake up drenched in sweat, because i cant wake up from those nightmares no matter how hard I try I just have to wait for them to be over. 
   In this post that I read most recently it said God will give you more than you can handle I guarantee it.   At first i was like what the crap no he wont. but then as I started reading it really hit home for me. It talks about how he gave you so much because we have to learn to turn to God and give our burden to him. I know that I try to do this by myself sometimes, I'm a little bit prideful with that. but we have to turn everything to The Lord. One of my favorite artist David Bowman created two of my favorite drawings called "My child" and "Peace" in both of these pictures it shows christ comforting a young woman I like to think that young woman is me because no matter what I am going through he is going to be there helping me get through it.
   Just recently I was talking well more like venting to one of my really close friends. I had been having a really bad day and i just feeling tired and done. She said something that really affected me, she said something along the lines of you probably took this because you couldn't stand to see one of your brothers or sisters to go through it. And that probably is what happened and i said something really stupid i said well what kind of idiot would choose that?! But now that I have had the chance to think it over some more I realized that that was probably true. I have to be grateful that I don't have to see one of my friends go through this, I think it would kill me to see someone else go what i am going through right now. 
  I encourage you guys to read the other post it is really good. And I'm so grateful for my friends who help me through it by the hugs and uplifting text and everything else. I'm especially grateful for my close friend don't know what I would do without her. But I think one of the greatest people to be grateful for is Christ he wants us to put our burden on him, he wants to be able to help us we all have to let him. I know I have a little bit of a hard time with it but I'm trying to be better! Well its getting late and i have to get all the rest I can, i have the flu on top of all of this other crap. joy! Thanks for reading and have a good night!
Here is the website for the other post and it's called, God will give you more than you can handle: I guarantee it.